Christine. 22. Wants to live a simple and boring life.
Amanda Li Ying Meng Kiat Tonggab Yi Wen Yi Xin
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Have to join the Sec 3 camp lor. Call me a bloody coward but I'm terrified I'll be seeing leeches there ARGHHHHHHHHH
I went to search the net on preventing leeches from biting me, but it seems that there is no foolproof way ARGHHHHHHH
I read that when you are bitten one can use medicated oil, heat it up with a flame or add salt but I heard that the leeches actually regurgitate all the blood they've sucked back into the wound ARGHHHHHHHH.
I heard we can wear nylon stockings as it's difficult for them to bite through the nylon. But really I think I'm going to faint if I see one crawling up towards my legs ARGHHHH.
Only coming back on Saturday. Hope I don't become too chao da. Friend's wedding is next week. Oh no.
Disappointed and angry. Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 9:26 PM At myself that is.
I am angry at myself for being angry at a student today.
Like seriously angry.
In fact I was seething, and I was controlling myself so hard not to scream and shout at the boy I was shaking.
*facepalm*
I'm such an idiot. You know what, I had the last say but I felt that I have lost to a 14 year old boy.
It all started when I caught him reading twilight (errr...) in class when the class was supposed to copy down notes. He said he didn't bring his exercise book so I told him to take out a piece of foolscap paper to copy the notes down. 5 minutes later I caught him showing his scribbles to his friends. I went to his seat, asked to see the drawing, which he blatantly refused. We had a staring competition for a few seconds, and I stood there to make sure he did the copying this time. A few minutes later, he started scribbling on the page again.
I was so cheesed off, I told him to get out of the class to talk. He threw his foolscap on the floor, stepped on it, and stormed out of the class.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" was the first thing I asked.
"Drawing illegal meh?" He shot back with a face so arrogant I felt like if I had a cleaver I will make him into bak chor!!
"No it's not illegal but why didn't you copy down the notes when I asked you to? I gave you a lot of chances and seriously you are a nuisance in the class!" I pointed from outside the class towards the board, and I realised that my hand was shaking, uncontrollably.
"I troublemaker what!"
"Are you happy being a troublemaker? Nobody likes a troublemaker!"
"So what nobody like me I happy!
"You are an intelligent boy, why would you want to make a nuisance out of yourself?! If you are to continue to be like this, I will make sure you are taken out of this class. I will have you out of the class."
I think at this point in time he was already switched off. His eyes were darting around, and he even burped in front of me (which may sound funny but I was disgusted at that point in time). I realised that there was no point continuing the conversation, because I simply couldn't reach out to him, so I told him that it seems like there is no use talking to him like this, and I felt it at there.
After that I walked away so cheesed, I couldn't speak. I think the teacher I was following around was rather shocked, and kept asking me to chill. I supposed my face must have looked really murderous. Anyway I saw this student along the corridor, and she suddenly asked me something about whether I had the name list of the Sec 4 counsellors. I replied her in a manner so casual I surprised myself.
But well I calmed down pretty quickly. And when I thought back what made me so angry was not because I cared about the student.
It was my own arrogance.
I felt like I wanted authority, for that delinquent boy to obey me. What the hell was I thinking? I think I was angry because I was insulted. I think I should be ashamed of myself because I have lowered myself to an idiotic secondary school student. And then I remembered what a lecturer from NIE said, "Remember who is the adult. You or the student?"
I've always thought it takes a lot to anger me, and I didn't care too much about face and pride, but apparently working in an environment whereby 90% of the students there do what you tell them to do, I might have forgotten what it feels to be opposed.
Lots more for me to learn I suppose.
Helplessness Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 11:40 PM Is the world's most useless feeling. It's so useless and so unproductive, I've got no idea why we are supposed to feel that.
Whether it is the inability to console a friend when she misses her loved one who is gone, or wondering how I should deal with a misbehaving student in class, or watching a friend post something on facebook that is so cringe-worthy because he showed the world everything a scrapbook he gave to a girl he liked, anything that made you feel at a loss of what to do or react.
WHAT A USELESS FEELING.
You know people always said that if they were granted some power of sorts they'd want to fly or whatever of those crap, I'd just want to have the power to know how to react exactly in relevance to the situation.
But seriously I don't think even think god has that power.
What a way to welcome the year... Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 8:04 PM I was unpacking stuff in school and I think I pulled my back muscle. Hurts like hell especially when I'm sitting.
Think I can't join SKC anytime soon until it gets better.
Bushido sixteen. Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 2:50 PM
I always thought it'll be made into a drama/movie since I read the book, and true enough it is! But the mental image I have of the two characters is super different one leh.
Starting work tomorrow after the long break. Jia you!!!
Amanda starting work tomorrow also eh, JIA YOU!
Happy New Year~ Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 12:41 PM I'm blogging for the heck of it actually.
So to make this post a little more useful, I wish all a happy and fruitful 2010!
Most of us have already started on the 2nd decade of our lives, and I learnt from my NIE course that this decade is more about work and romance, so may we all have good luck in those two areas!